I'm sorry I dropped the face of the planet

I'm sorry for refusing plans (or canceling out on the final second) with apologies for shit. I do know you're most likely uninterested in me. You’re most likely beginning to ask your self if I keep away from you voluntarily if I don’t need to be your buddy anymore.

I understand how laborious it’s to remain in contact with folks. I understand that I’ve most likely made you are feeling that I didn’t care to spend time with you, as in case you meant nothing to me, as if I used to be uninterested in our friendship.

However that's not the reality. I nonetheless love you. I all the time recognize you. I nonetheless need you in my world. The random days I’m going to MIA have completely nothing to do with you. They need to do with me and my very own psychological well being.

I do know that everybody has issues, that everybody has stress issues to stay with, however that everybody doesn’t withdraw from their pals like me. That is the explanation why I need to say that I’m sorry to have waited so lengthy to reply your texts some days and to have fully ignored your texts the opposite days. I'm sorry you're nonetheless the one who sends the primary message, the one which information, the one which helps our friendship to outlive.

I do know you're most likely judging me for my absences. You most likely assume how troublesome it’s to ship a textual content message? And also you're proper, sending an SMS will not be an enormous deal, however if you put it above the hundreds of thousands of issues I’ve to do this day, it might probably overwhelm me. I can fully shut as a result of it appears to me that it’s an excessive amount of stress on the similar time, too many expectations.

Generally the smallest job could seem to be the toughest factor on the planet. Generally I can’t accomplish the identical issues that everybody round me appears to perform simply.

I'm sorry I dropped the floor of the planet, however there are days after I can’t carry myself to go away the sofa, not to mention go away the home. Even when I need to spend time with you, it is not going to all the time be an choice for me.

I'm sorry for all of the instances you've trapped me with little white lies about why I couldn’t exit with you. But it surely's a lot simpler to inform you that I'm caught at work or getting the flu than admitting that my psychological well being has taken successful lately. I hope you possibly can perceive this, even when you don’t approve it.

I don’t attempt to discover excuses for my dangerous habits. My sanity doesn’t give me the liberty to deal with you want shit. I’m not attempting to be a nasty buddy. I'm attempting to gather my bullshit. I'm looking for a technique to steadiness my social life with all the pieces that's happening with me. I'm attempting to do higher, however I'm sorry for all the pieces I've already finished improper.

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